4 weeks

At 4 weeks, Zachary:

Eats a lot! He is/has gone through a growth spurt, which sometimes means he's feeding every 1.5-2 hours throughout the day. While exhausting for me, I love that he's getting what he needs and letting me know when he needs more. I'm so glad to be able to provide it!

Has officially outgrown his newborn clothes. He fits pretty nicely into the 0-3m, but some are still a tad big. My little boy is growing up so fast!

In general, has two wakeful periods during the day. First thing in the morning after his first feeding, he loves to just hang out with me and look around. Again in the evening around dinner time, his eyes are wide open and he's just taking it all in.

Has given us a few nights with 4.5 hours between feedings. What a WONDERFUL thing this is!!!! M loves that when he is hungry, he will try to get his milk from anyone who is holding him...this means M's neck, chin, shoulder, etc. It's pretty darn cute!

Is still just doing the involuntary smiles, but they have definitely gotten more frequent. We are eagerly anticipating the real deal!

Loves to be carried in the Moby Wrap and Baby Bjorn.

Is still wearing newborn sized diapers...but as soon as we run out of what we have, we are moving up to size 1.

Doesn't cry in the bathtub. He LOVES the warm water. This amazes me, and I love this sweet, bonding time with him.

Screams when he's hungry, but doesn't make a peep for any other reason. Actually, that's not true. He grunts when he has gas...and let me tell you, they are man-sized toots. He IS is father's son!

Has a blocked tear duct in his right eye. We clean it out frequently and are just waiting for it to resolve itself. Apparently this is quite common amongst newborns.

Loves to be bounced and rocked..and is mesmerized by any and all types of lights.

Is sooo strong and frequently jailbreaks his swaddles. He loves to have his hands near his face when he sleeps and eats.

Loves his carseat and going for rides in the car. We are grateful for this!

Is now sleeping in the bassinet next to the bed. Mommy misses him, and Daddy was glad to see him move out. He seems so far away now!!

Still likes to pee on us while we're changing his diaper. We are getting better about blocking it with a cloth diaper or a pee-pee teepee, but there are days that he goes through 3 outfits as a result of our inattention! Ah, the joys of baby boys!

Is absolutely the joy of our lives. We can hardly believe it's already been 4 weeks, and we are so smitten with this tiny little being. He is the miracle we waited for, and he was worth every minute of pain and disappointment.

Career Aspirations

Okay, so this confirms that we do, in fact, have the world's cutest baby. Anyone familiar with the movie Zoo.lander?? Well, apparently my little Zachary has seen it and is an aspiring male model. Here is his best "Blue Steel" pose:

The King in His Castle...and other Highlights

I truly can't believe it's been two weeks! M and I are soaking in every minute with our little one, and this bonding time has been invaluable to our little family! We feel so blessed with this mellow, sweet, adorable baby boy.

Here are some highlights from the first few weeks:

Sleeping:

While I swore I'd never be the type to have my baby sleep in bed with us, having a c-section caused me to be much more flexible in my ideas. Our plan had been for Zachary to sleep in the bassinet right next to the bed, but I quickly discovered that I couldn't sit up in bed without help, much less reach over the side of the bed to pick up a hungry baby. We had already invested in a S.nuggle Ne.st, thinking it would be a great device for Z to nap in downstairs on the couch:

Well, as it turns out, we are loving having Zachary sleeping in between us at night. This device also has a night light and plays the sounds of a uterus (!!!), which our little man loves! It makes tending to his needs (while I am still healing from the surgery) so much easier...and I truly enjoy being so close to him at night...another feeling I was not expecting to have! It's amazing how strong the bond is right away! The first 9-10 days were extremely sleep-deprived (oh boy, that's another post!)...but we are into a nice routine now and have found our rhythm in terms of sleep.

Eating:

Zachary is a champion breast-feeder. We never had any latch problems..the only thing that was frustrating at first was that it took my milk forever and a day to fully come in. I know that this is more common with a c-section (and hours upon hours of pitocin-induced labor), so I was trying to just go with the flow (or lack thereof, haha) and not get too worked up about it. I was also listening to all my friends say, "Oh you'll KNOW when it comes in!" This was throwing me for a loop because as it turns out, mine just came very gradually and I've never had an oversupply problem. Anyway, it's here and Z is definitely getting enough. At his 1.5 week pediatrician appointment, he had gained 11 ounces in 7 days!! We had been to the doctor when he was 4 days old because after birth he dropped almost an entire pound, and was slightly jaundiced. My milk coming in definitely fixed our problem!! I use a Bop.py Pillow and a Nipple Shield (and the Lan.sinoh nipple cream), and am loving the bonding time with my little man.

Other Fun Stuff:

Our Black Labrador Charlie has been an excellent big brother so far! Of course, I had some apprehension about the dog-baby relationship, but have found that our dog is a gentle giant! He only approaches the baby when he's invited, and is gentle with his kisses!

Zachary is much more alert in the past few days. He has more wakeful periods where he'll just look around or stare at us. He makes the cutest faces - one of which I'm going to do in a separate post. We love seeing his eyes open more as he starts to discover his world!

He is still wearing newborn-sized clothes, but he's so long (gonna be tall like his daddy - who is 6'3") I can see that he'll be moving to the 0-3m very soon. I already feel like he's growing too fast, which makes me want to spend every minute with him. We've already taken upwards of 300 pictures, as I'm so afraid we'll miss something great!

Knock on wood, but my little man is sooo mellow. He can sleep anywhere, anytime, and in pretty much any position! He slept almost all the way through a bath the other day! I'm not so naive to think that it'll be like this forever, but I'm enjoying it nonetheless. It has made our first two weeks together so much more manageable!

M and I (and various family members) found out very quickly that little boys LOVE to pee as soon as their diapers are removed. This has made for some HILARIOUS moments, and my poor mother has been the unluckiest recipient - all over her face and shirt - of the wee wee!

And (Finally!) some nursery pictures - with the king to make them official!

My New Joy.

Life Changing

Life with a newborn: I started this post 3 days ago!!

There are so many things on my mind since Zachary's birth, but the words to express my feelings are hard to come by. This baby boy has changed our lives in so many ways; but most importantly, I feel that M and I have discovered the meaning of true, unconditional love.

The labor and birth of this little miracle was much like our attempts at ttc: long, painful, and not at all what I would have planned for myself. However, the perfect creation that resulted from my efforts has been more than worth what we went through.

It started last Friday (the 20th) at 5:15 as I was awakening from a nap. I felt a low kick from the baby and then a popping sensation followed by GUSHING water. When I say gushing, it's no joke and it just keeps coming. The problem was that I was in bed and needed to get to the bathroom without soaking our carpet!! Quite the challenge. With heart racing, I called M (he was in his home office working that day!). His first response was to start cleaning up the water I had gushed all over the room! I hurriedly gathered the last few items to put in the bag (and also snuck a shower in), and M got everything else ready to go. Within 45 minutes we were on our way to the hospital!

My contractions picked up very quickly once we were settled in to our room. Because my water had broken and my first cervical check revealed I was only 2 cm dilated, they put me on a low dose of pitocin. Within 2 hours I had progressed to 6 cm and was READY for my epidural! And let me say, what a sweet relief that was. I loved every second of it!

The rest of my labor was slower..it took me until 4 am to reach a full 10 cm., at which point I was ready to start pushing. Pushing turned out to be so much different (and harder) than I thought it would be. Mostly because of the epidural, as I couldn't feel a thing! The nurses and M were awesome and were telling me that I was doing an awesome job, but it was so hard for me to tell, and each push drained so much energy from me....keep in mind we'd already been up all night long!

After an hour of pushing my OB came and checked my progress. He told me that baby was having a hard time descending further, despite the great pushing I was doing. He also noted that the baby had a swollen head as a result of being squished against my pubic bone. He wanted me to keep on truckin', so I did. For TWO MORE HOURS. Turns out the little guy's head and shoulders were just too wide to make it through my narrow frame. A.K.A. pubic bone.

When they told me that the recommendation was c-section, I was very sad...BUT I was also extremely exhausted, so I knew that it truly was my only option. M suited up in his haz-mat suit (!!), and by 7:45 they were wheeling me into the O.R.

I think I slept through most of the actual surgery. I remember feeling tugging and hearing voices all around me, but not much else UNTIL I heard the sweetest sound: Zachary's beautiful cries. My heart leapt and then the sobs came in abundance. I couldn't believe I was hearing my baby's perfect cries, and just lost it right there on the table. M was over with Zach while they cleaned him up and he got to trim the umbilical cord. Shortly after, they brought him to me so I could kiss his sweet cheeks, and then they were gone (they take the c-section babies to the nursery to get weighed, measured, etc.).

The hour I spent in recovery was quite frankly the hardest and longest of my lifetime. Time literally stood still, and all I can remember is an intense feeling of sadness and helplessness as I begged the nurse to see my baby and my body shook uncontrollably with chills. At some point, M came back, and the pediatrician followed closely behind. She reported a clean bill of health, and of course all I could say was, "When can I see him?" Over and over and over again. At some point, someone told me they were going to keep him in the nursery for a few hours before I could see him. This is the point where I FREAKED out. As they were wheeling me to our postpartum room, I could see my family at the end of the hall looking into the nursery and taking pictures. I felt so absolutely helpless, and demanded that he be brought to me. I can't remember how much time passed (and truly, why I even had to wait at all), but he was finally brought to me, and the celebrations commenced.

We spent 4 days in the hospital - enough time for me to start to heal and become more mobile. It was nice to have the help of the nurses for those first days as we got to know our son, but we were READY to get home on Tuesday!!! Since then, life has been more amazing than words can express. Zachary is an expert breastfeeder, and while it's been a slight challenge due to my milk taking it's sweet time coming in, we are coping well..and I am healing quicker than I expected!

Okay..this is a loong post..more to come soon (I hope!).

Is this real??

He's here!

Zachary entered this beautiful world this morning at 8:05 a.m. after a 15 hour labor and a cesarean delivery. I will post more later, but for now enjoy some pics of my 9lb. 3 oz. beautiful baby boy! He's simply perfect.

It's Happening!

38w2d

My water broke at 5:15 this evening! We are at the hospital now. I am contracting, but the last time they checked I was just 2 cm dilated, so they started me on a low dose of pitocin to speed things along.

Elfie will be in our arms soon!!