I am still finding myself in a state of disbelief about being pregnant. I find it very difficult to say the word and actually believe that it's me I'm talking about! I've spent the last year and 7 months wanting this, but now have trouble accepting that it's my time. I think the ectopic really messed me up in that way.
Right now, the symptoms are few..I've had a few gagging episodes, and "the girls" are bigger and more sore than they've ever been. I also occasionally get a few distinct twinges/dull cramps in my uterine region. Oh yeah, and I'm 5 days late for AF (no complaints here!). Comparatively, this seems much more "normal" than the last time I saw those two pink lines.
When my NP called last Wednesday to give me the beta score, I asked when they wanted to see me again for the next beta. She replied by explaining that they don't need to see me again! I was dumbfounded, and then proceeded to beg for another blood draw. I know that I'm just not going to be convinced by two betas.
I go in at 8:30 tomorrow. I'll post results when I have them!
I'm so glad to have a blog-friend right now who's also had a loss because it does change things. I'm so much more paranoid this time...just waiting for everything to fall apart again. But I'm trying to remain positive and I know the chances are in my favor that it will all work out. But it's still nice to have someone who knows all about the fear and anxiety and hope. I can't wait to hear your numbers!
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